All I need Is M and D

Its been long i'd say, this is a pretty recent photo of me, just taken last week.

This week has been a pretty normal one. Its the weekends, finally. But somehow, there is this part of me that is looking forward to my daily(mon-fri) ballet classes with Miss Elizabeth. Hmm...odd..Ballet ain't really my thing you kno;) For noww..I think im starting to..like..it;)How do I measure productivity everyday in school? By the number of compliments I get in classes. Seriously. Especially during ballet and contemporary classes:) Miss Elizabeth hardly gives any but thats because Im CLEARLY not physically build for ballet. But I have confident that I will earn her fullest attention one day:) On the other hand, Pei Shan(contemp) gives me compliment everyday because I was previously modern trained so my muscles work better and pick up faster in contemporary classes. But I still need to work a lot on my flexibility altho I'd rate it slightly above average. At least my extensions are higher than what most normal people can do, not comparing to those whom were ballet trained since young.

Sighh..

A lot of things has been running tru my mind lately, about love about life about dance. I cant deny that I was feeling pretty down last week or the week before because...well..I feel alone. I am all alone here in Singapore after all. I know its normal, its a phase that everyone goes through with when being in a different country to study. Its not that bad here, better than being in UK or Europe when everything from the culture and people is totally different.

But....

I know this experience is going to make me a whole lot stronger mentally and I do feel like I am becoming more independant. Still, I miss "her" so much but I know that she is watching over me and that everything is going to be just fine because she's my i'd say...guardian angel. She's my mum, My everything. And with her in mind, I am not afraid of anything, not even death. "Mum, I promise you that I will be the best dancer that I can be and I will not let you down and let all your effort and dedication go to waste. I will live my life with no regrets and always remember what you taught me. I love you so much and I miss you even more. Everyday, I still wish that you could have been here to see where I am now but I know you are still looking from above. You will forever be in me and with everything that I achieve, you gave it to me. So thank you mum, thank you so much."

Jump!

Addicted to Jump by flo-rida ft Nelly Furtado. Check it out!:)

And ROBIN SKOUTERIS mix titled 'You Know I Want Love Celebration'(mash up from lady gaga, madonna and pitbull) *one of the BEST remix i've heard***MUST CHECK OUT***

Last Sunday, I went for an audition at O School for their end of the year recital. I thought it was gona be a pretty small thing but boy was I wrong. There were like 400 over ppl there auditioning as well. And they are only aiming for half the number of participants. How did it went? Well, I'd say quite confidently that I would make it because I try to make myself as outstanding as possible and I really did my best so...lets keep fingers crossed k!:) Their recital will take place on December 15. More details, check out www.oschool.com.sg

Also, I just attended BAYBEATS 09 yesterday at Esplanade. Awesome shit. I am now officially "love me butch"s fan;) They are a Malaysian band but I've never really heard their music before this. Their music is pretty much hardcore but very catchy and the drum beats are awesome:)Local Singaporean band 'The Marilyns' are pretty good too. I like their song titled 'Hardland Hero':) The lead singer actually composed this song for a random guy(working for the town council) whom helped him to remove his old sofa, in which the guy apparently single handedly carried the entire sofa for him when there was no one else around that he could as for help. Morale of the story? Get to know a musician, he'd most probably compose a song for you;)lol. Seriously.

Sorry, i hardly post pics anymore cause the uploader is fuckin retarded. I did upload pics drom baybeats on fb;)

PS: Thanks for the tips Tomzee. will definitely check out the crews you mentioned:)

Old flame, yet Strong

It's funny how I came across our picture and the vibe that it exudes so strongly and so familiar. Looking so picture perfect together, like a wedding picture yet...not. Will the past be the past or will the past become a stronger future? We'll see in the years to come.:) But I have always and will always love you.

xoxo,
the unpredictable.

Dance Druggie in Singapore.Period.

hey hey all!:) it's been looong since I've updated and I am so sorry cause I've been pretty busy packing, buying, getting ready for Singapore!And yes, I am already here(Singapore) to stay permanently until the end of November, back for holidays. Class starts next week, orientation is tomorrow and I am NERVOUS!lol.I hope I meet nice people, people whom share the same passion as I do, that'd be awesomee.

I've been here for about a week now and things are....well, I'm in survival mode I'd say. I mean it is a whole new different country with altho very similar but still different culture and I am in the 'transition' phase. So far, its okay. Havent been eating really well tho because the food here is no doubt expensive, especially when you convert the rates. But hawker food is ok. Chap fan(Mixed rice) costs about 2.50 to 2.70 sing dollar. Damn I don't even know the prices for Malaysia's chap fan. That's because I have HOME COOKED FOOD back home.:(I miss HOME COOKED FOOD. Trust me, for those of you goin to another country to study soon, eat home cooked food(if available) as often as possible. Nothing beats home anything.

Dance wise....I just attended an open hip hop class yesterday at some hip hop school name O school. It was an intermediate class. Choreography was good but loadsa footwork and very old school hip hop. I had a pretty hard time catchin up cause I wasn used to the footworks. Felt kinda crappy after class cause hip hop is my genre after all and well, I expected myself to do better. NEVERTHELESS, I learned and this open class prove to be a wake up call that I NEED to start dancing more and practice, practice practice!! Hip hop is my main love afterall.

YOUTUBE DANCE VID ALERT: Check this chick out, Pauline Mata. Fuckin sick dancer.

I am trying my best to be the best that I can be in Singapore. I hope to go far here in terms of dancing and of course do all I can in my studies in performing arts, dance of course.;)

An inspiring phase from one of Donald Trump's books:

"To be a winner in life, find a passion, get out of your comfort zone and be a doer.
Learn to handle pressure, to bounce back from failure and to never give up."

I couldn agree more.:)

Tataz.Back soon.
EV

Hola:)

I am so sorry ya'll!I know it' been really long since I last updated, many things happened and my life is pretty much a changed one since the last time. I'd do a slow update, wouldn't wana gush everything out in one post now would I=)

Let's start out with a clubbing post!LOL.Been clubbin pretty constantly now and then cause I absolutely love the music and atmosphere while clubbing. Not to drink or whatsoever but just to DANCE!dance dance baby!;) Went to Mardigras last Friday for some 100 girls event thing and the photographers there were literally snapping awayyy.They took some pretty fine looking pictures tho;)











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will updateee more soon.I promise. Sis rushing me to go home. Blogging from Starbucks;)


-Fiercer than ever-;)

XOXO, me;)Still the same Ev, Except more BOLD.

In Time, What You Say Will All Turn Into LIES

Sad but true. I've learned it the easy and hard way. My mum whom have always kept things real for me about what others can say to you, give you a bunch of heaven words and at the end of the day, turns into lies. Ugly ugly lies.

The biggest lie of all time? Saying to someone who's not your family member that you will love that person forever. If you'd say that to me, I'd say FUCK YOU. To say that you would love a person forever takes plenty of balls and responsibility. Forever is defined as a state that will always exist. So how can you love a person forever when you are not gona be a forever and also, feelings change, feelings come and go. So don't ever fucking say it unless you really really really really know what loving forever is.

Fucktards.

Im so sorry for my vulgarity today. It's just that I let my guard down and this is what I get. I should have known.

Emo post today I promise, things will be better. TONS better.

XOXO,
Ev the non believer.

Becauase What Doesn't Kills You..Screws U Up then Makes U Stronger

Alone right now. There is just this really strong sense of independence and wanting to do everything the best I can and show the world what I'm made off, inside me. :)

You know how people always tell you 'what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger'. And I'd like to add 'however, you'll be screwed up real nice before you get to the...stronger part'. But I totally agree with the saying because its the truth. You learn from bad things that happen to you. You learn to handle things better so that you will not repeat the same mistake in the future. Likewise, I have learned a lot from the many events that have taken place this year and last year. From my mum's passing, separation...and the latest addition to top it off, working. Work sucks but it teaches you a lot of things that you may never learn unless you get your butt out there and start seeing the world and learning from different situations and from different people that you meet outside. I'm actually really lucky because my boss is really nice. I know out there, there are some bosses that really just makes you wana give up on life and gives you a real hard time.

On the other hand, my mum's passing has thought me that life is short and you should do everything with the best effort or else, why bother doing it. While you're still in one piece, get going and try everything because you never know when your last breath will be. Do whatever that would make you happy. But also make sure that it is not at the expense of other people's happiness. lol. I feel like I'm giving some sort of a life changing talk here. But no, I just want to share what I currently feel with all of you out there.

On a brighter note, pictures..!!with my crazy bestie.












I know We Cute...and Hot.lol

XOXO,
crazy me.